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2) finish works before sem/year end.
3) save another 1k or more.
4) learn driving when reach 18.
5) lead a different life from 2007.
6) <50kg.
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7)change heck care attitude, explain to people who misunderstood me.
8)dont be afraid of losing face.
9)be more confident!

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我发现我好像喜欢上他了。

但是，

我选着放弃因为我知道

这一切会是没有结果的，

因为怕受到伤害所以选着不爱

这是我保护自己的方法。

i cant take anymore rejection,

i dont wanna same thing to happen.


dejected-


i know i will get over it very soon, very fast. i know it myself =)

BYE! will update later ^^ today got mass runwalk.

after that went for art, ah didnt do much either.

today was totally bored, everyone bad mood making me kind of moodless too.

last day of detention too.

god damn, i got tons of things to write but suddenly everything just flash out of my mind.

saw a freaking spider at my room and it make me felt irritated sia, stupid spider.


i really hope for everyone to be happy especially my friends, i dont like to see gloomy face nor tears. cant everyone just cheer up? c'mon stay happy to live longer norh. smile okay?

and and and that freaking one, stop all those rubbishs hope one fine day everyone will come to a light! damn it.

okay shall end here. going to web-sighting.

BYE! i very good today, postpone my detention. why i say im good because at least i postpone rather than no show, right?

today very free 'cause no homework lah, after school still can go cwp buy things and repair the thingy.

in school was kinda pissed by that bamboo and the gay, stop drawing my potrait lah though i know i cute. =S

@&#**#%@#^#$&!!!

this week i had been regular customer to the RTC room, reporting for detention almost one week. BUT im very good okay? i at there do homeworkssss leh.

ermmmmmmmmm...

seriously i got nothing to blog, so...

BYE! yeah think if im lucky i might get a puppy for real cheap or either free =D

today serve another detention and i might not blog for few day le lah, everyday got homeworks then so many tv progamme very busy sia. lol

okay lah going to watch tv soon

BYE (updated)

just come back from school, and finish saving the pics(my pics got virus) and now going to watch tv.

yawnssss tired. serving detention for another day, late today.

BYE

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im so boring lah, no nice tv progamme, nobody at home and im all alone! damn thing

i hate hate hate people who called the wrong number and didnt even say sorry and hang the phone, bitch/bastard sickening people. ARGH

finished the book, 'the call from crying house' not bad not bad, worth reading though the book is very thin. support local, support me =D

AHHHH im so boring now lah, nothing to do at all.

dont wanna study already lah everyday same thing, i wanna die lah. my life no money, no brain(even OJ is saying im slow), no bf =( and no everything lah. stupid

a%#$*%^%* this entry is totally rubbish, rubbish~ RRRRRRRRRRR


( tian-[Z].[C]-tian )

ar that time watch tv, got one way to see if your partner is your true love/forever love. if the guy last finger's ring can fit in the girl's 4th finger that mean you are predicted to be forever. stupid right? but i believe =D

初恋的粉色系~ so nice!

ARRRR BYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE damn tired now, going to sleep in a few hours of time hahaa.

yesterday ton outside, with tina but initially out with jasmine and tina. then go pass their clothes then in the end we overstay in the mrt station so pay more $2, my money~

so ton at esplanade with tina then morning 6 to 7 then went home, by the time i reached home is about 8 plus le. initially wanna eat breakfast but no shop open yet and we walked around suntec for 3 round(first floor) just trying to find mac. in the end mission failed =/

reach home then play games then sleep until 4 plus wake up to watch tv. eat 4 swee kueh nia, eat nothing else -.-

once my first DIY shirt reached home, im going to sell it. the pink color shirt was given to my ahma to amend. weets!

okay lah very bored, waiting for my dinner back.
bye~ okay, today decided dont go home.

yesterday that old tortoise shouted at me, therefore i also shout back. okay do lots of talking... then i really bth i cried, dont know why i will cried also then still non-stop. the tortoise say got any problem tell him, tell him what? shyt ar?! today both pig and tortoise sent me a message but i wont give up the hatred! STUPID HOME!

ARGH! bye everyone! yesterday went out around 2 in the end i was quite early i stand until i bth because so hot leh then i went into cwp. bought my books then tina called said that she reach le so haven buy my cd yet. meet up with her le then her sister went off so go search for chen-i's album. finally at MJ got then i wanted to pay but that tina hor dont wanna let me pay in the end we like fight at the counter there, think the guy there sure scare of us liao LOL.
chen-i's album and the 2 books i bought.

so meet up with jasmine then go to cck meet up with gp, its like i so long never go out with them lol abit weird bah?? so went to sing then wahahahaa i got my bithday present sia.
the pink monkey and the black pig.

do lots of funny things there. pics will upload in album =)

then after sing go back cwp took the lousy neoprint machine then went to buy ticket then went to eat at swensen, tina's treat muhahahaa. we bought her a cake and most of the staffs sang her a birthday song, think she very paiseh bah hahaa.
icecream cake
swensen free birthday icecream

after all those food my tummy pop out and feel like pooo and farttt sia lol. was late about 20 mins for the movies but still the funny part we didnt miss out bah? hahaa then end of the show went out to take the drawing paper.

end of the day~

went home watch 'yu le bai fen bai' weets! chen-i helping out in Sweety's mtv hahaa so cute sia him. and today lee joon ki's show is up le! go watch okay! hehee pretty boys~ yesterday went to correct my hair LOL, aunt and my cousins came for dinner. make them wait for me until 8 i super paiseh lah but at least jh got cut her hair LOL~ she was so reluctant in the first place.

after eating all of them came to my house, on the way i was sitted with the 3 kids then that yh was talking but the saliva like free one like that keep spit then somemore she like deaf like that one keep huh huh huh -.- but so cute right? all the 3 cousins come to find me then my ahma say to them why they 3 like to find me hahaa, i too cute lah! lol i found out that actually jh's character is totally like mine, damn nice okay! hahaa

so pass my DIY clothes to my ahma and ask her to amend for me but while explain i already sweat like as if i just come out from water, she got the same problem as yh =/

they left around 10 plus.

the saloon aunty keep ask me got buy things for my dad anot then i very guilty say no, to think that my dad keep hinting me he want what want go where eat lol im still a kid who got no money loh! lol

oh ya forget about sia, yesterday yh saw the 2 pens i bought from KL, then she keep say very cute leh your pens i know she wanted them but i cant give her that then i say aiya i know the pens cute and i know you want but i cant give you LOL

so young know how to use tactic le sia. lol

that day i was watching a show at ch5, Whatever. it was a show from angmoh country, omg and its something to link with art. i see already i got the urge to study at UK or US lah, go US at least can see harry potter! LOL but whatever it is, if i got the chance next time my child will be born at angmoh country! =O

okay lah enough craps! byeeee alright didnt manage to pass the clothes to my ahma, that pig went off herself just because few days ago i had a fight with her. stupid =/

yesterday didnt go out but euodia came to my house then she went to met up with rachel. do nothing but watch tv.

anyway 王的男人 which 李准基 is acting in is coming soon! on the 22 of june must watch that pretty boy show hahaa!

there is an advertisement on the princess hours which look good huh? ya looking forward to that show hehee.

im quite suprise of how those fans can actually find out who support their idols. actually i thought of going to chen-i events if there is any but my principle is never squeeze with people under the hot sun, lol. somehow if he got i might look out on the tv =D

think thats all. BYE! (updated)

now the time im sleeping change to 5 plus, the time my dad wake up and getting ready for work. im always playing my phone's game until im dead beat then off to my dream.

tomorrow going out with "U.deer" to buy my books and cd, because tonight pig going to pay me some of the money. if she dont pay i think im going to die soon, piang eh thinking of the money she own me i got flared up again!

i find something strange. why people love reading novels, fictional books but doesnt like reading textbook? LOL i also dont know ar, both is books but ah maybe is the content bah.

dont know what books i can buy eh but i kinda wanting those books i saw in genting.

oh i forget to mention that those bags, e.g skull bag selling at bugis village those area, in fact they are sold at KL for lest then $20 around $10 plus only. LOL lucky i never buy, maybe i never ever like those things hahaa

okay im going to watch tv, always miss some part one 真讨人厌.

bye bye im feeling better now

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wah watched 'yu le bai fen bai' i like the 張傑![biodata]
but not as much as 陈奕 and the 李准基, all this 3 look so good hehee. now i got many idols liao lahhhh

中文姓名： 陈奕

英文姓名： Zeropointsix / Andy, Chen

出生地点： 台北市

出生日期： 1986 / 10 / 16

星座血型： 天秤座 / AB型

身材规格： 178 cm × 58 kg

兴趣嗜好： 篮球、音乐、绘画、电影、戏剧、创作、制作

特殊专长： 吉他、Bass 头发造型

家庭成员： 母、

教育程度：

小学: 三兴国小
国中: CHARLES E.LONDON SECONDARY SCHOOL Richmond.BC Canada
高中: 华冈艺校 / 庄敬高职

佩服的人：有想法而会积极的去执行的人

欣赏歌手：王力宏 . 彩虹乐团 . 东京事变 (椎名林擒) . 陈奕迅

喜欢科目：电吉他

喜欢艺人：Elton John、 Stevie Wonder、Prince、George Michael、Sting

喜欢电影：关键报告

喜欢食物：日本料理、奶油义大利面、Pizza

喜欢地方：希腊 埃及 日本

喜欢颜色：蓝色 紫色 橘色 黑色

事业目标：做一个有想法的音乐人做出有创意，有思想，有内涵，有个人特色的作品。

teheehee =D it seem like every night i almost had a dream, i rely on my dream too much lah.

yesterday night i dream of my primary school and all those friends, suddenly i remembered one friends which i lost contact after sec 1. somehow if all of us stay at primary school then isnt life better?

this few days of relying on dream i know it wont help, i came to realised it when i couldnt sleep and so much bad memories came to my mind and i can only seek help from sleep and thats when i know life isnt that bad. i turn my world upside down, to me my reality is my dream and the nightmare is the reality. i feel much better if this is true...

its true that no one understand what situation i am in, im not bother by love but all the factor around me. im someone who seek for perfection though i myself is imperfect but after all those seeking, i no longer hanker for the perfect life.

this is the first time im so badly affect by books, the first time i really feel so helpful, the first time i came to realise i mean nothing to this world and people around me. 我好渺小 i felt so small, so small until everyone can step onto me.

since when the world had been fair? so why should i hanker for the fairness when none of the people got it.

bye people, not much fun had been into this blog now... yesterday slept at 4 again, everyday like slept at around the same time.

finally i decided to do something good for myself and improve my english, i decide to write a diary since i had no one to talk to and my time is passing by so slow. so when pig return my money(she had once again took my angbao money for birthday) on the 15th and i will go to popular to buy some books and some nice looking book for my diary not forgeting Chen-I's album.

sometime when i think about those money i USED to have i tend to get sick of my mother, tell me which mother took your new year money, even your birthday money and when people said you are a spoiltbrat who spend money like flowing tap and you cant say anything but just let people accused? this few days i had been thinking of this plus my dad's accused i really cannot tahan anymore, i stop talking to my dad and ignore him as if he's not at home.

no one understand my situation and thats why i had become so aloof thise few days. i calculated the money she own me, its more than $1000 MIND YOU MORE THAT $1000! SHYT IT! everytime say will return when got money but since when she return? that day i swore to myself i wont lent her guess what? she bring my piggy bank(with code) and ask me to take out the money i refused and she continues to disturb my sleep, i open up i told her take as much as you like lah, initially she wanna borrowed $60 but in the end she really took as much as she like, SHE BLOODY TOOK $100! i really cant take it anymore. the money i haven even spent, the money whom people thought i took, JUST GONE! she asked me to thanks my grandma for the money because thats for my birthday, i refused i said i wont thanks the money for people, she bloody said she wont take my money AND WHATS NOW? ALL GONE! just the money on my birthday $200 she took and i left with $48? IS IT HER MONEY? TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I SPENT ON?

she often didnt pay the bill which make me furious and now she...

i got enough of all this, bloody shyt! finished little bride yesterday night, what a wonderful ending =)

i had a strange dream last night, i dreamt of being wanted by police and i was on the run with some friends(obviously i forgotten who) and with CHEN YI -.- damn i dream of dream of my idol. LOL hahaa did you guys watch 'guess3'? he was so cute you know? when he was caught laughing at jacky wu hahaa damn cute lah.

anyway just played neopet with euodia, earn quite alot of cheapskate stuff =/
was pretty sorry to her that i put her aeroplane when i said i will go for the english thingy but didnt go. hahaa

i was pretty indulge in books again, recently i start on 'the boy who talks to ghosts' written by local 13 years old boy together with her mother, though the writing was pretty kiddy but its quite nice somehow. try reading that okay? next book i will be buying and reading perhaps is the book i saw at genting but i forget the name, will look up and try reading and if nice i will intro.

ya thats all for today, i had a nice dream and my mood is pretty good. im no longer that real because i live for my dream, my mood now depend on the dream which i know obviously not reality yet somehow i yearn for it, i yearn for dreams everynight.

bye, sweet dreams!

for one thing i want now is chen yi album lah... why not a single person understand my need just because i dont tell them, i wanted to share my sorrow but i can only cried in the night alone... from the last post until yesterday night i finished up harry potter - half-blood prince, i took 3 days to complete it. somehow i hope i was in the magical world but not as complex as harry potter's.

i dont know why after reading the whole book i felt kinda of depressed, oh including watching spirited away on the tv. love was somehow wonderful in illusion but cruel in reality, no wonder people would want to indulge themselves in illusion than facing the reality which in placed in front of them, we are avoiding the true though we know its all real. watching dramas and reading books is like placing the fairytale love in it because we couldnt get it, thats why we always hope for a happy ending in every stories.

all of sudden i become so aloof, no causes perhaps its due to the 2 wonderful stories i had seen recently. 爱一点都简单 im disagreeing david tao's song =)

forget it.

my eye had once again swollen like shyt for the umpteen, i wonder how i can go to school with the eye without being detected and of course laughed at -.-. the swell just wont go out you know? for many days already

i wont be signing in msn anything wanna find me, find me here. where i am going? im going into my illusion, finding the perfect life and the love that i hanker for so much. dissolving my soul into the illusion perhaps make me feel better, somehow i still know where i am standing. =)

goodbye everyone... yesterday my whole day at home, nice one! my parents didnt even bring me out to eat freaking shyt, of course i get attitude. forget it~

totally NO MOOD LAH!

dont feel like blogging about the genting trip nor anything. wait till my mood get better then see lah.

BYE

李准基 and 陈奕 ROCKS LAH! =) im back nah, might be updating in the later time.

guess what? i can get sunburn at genting! LOL so happy.

okok back later.

oh ya today my birthday and im kinda touched when so many wishes me, thanks alot to those. but i prefer present you know? LOL Just kidding. think will upload those photo in blogger when i get my camera charger back, meanwhile go to my album to see those pics okay? (updated)

i'm so bored i shall blog now~

tomorrow i'm leaving yet i didnt find anyone to take care of my hamsters, think after 4days back they will went up there already.

tried on the keyboard still cant ding-dong any nice music out, manage to ding-dong the front part of 天空 ONLY and ONLY FRONT PART! how smart am i?

my shirt is halfway there,i bloody hope that if i sell for $5 people will buy it. hope so...

for this month things start to get better but my temper still same lah, a few days ago i just threw a fishball noodle which my pig bought from chinatown just because its not my taste. and i can threw the whole pot of porridge just because i got nothing to eat with. i keep throwing tantrum like a ill-breed girl, i wanted to change yet 心有余而力不足 get it?

hope my trip to malaysia can make my temper better and of cause i will buy things for people, hope you are the lucky one.

and chen-i album i haven even buy one! goshhhhhhhhh

anyway people observe my blog had become blue-er? i change the 2 pics hahaa.

okay lah i shall read my H.P now.
BYE ALL! the next 4 days i will miss blogging and i swear i will took tons of nice pics to show you how nice is malaysia =P

take care pals, buddy and friends.

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catch next friday ch U 'guess3' because got chen yi again! *SCREAM*

just now i played tiankong front part for pig then i use my hp to let her listen to original and she scolded me stupid say the keyboard can save why i save on hp then i told her i use hp let her listen one is original, then i realised my one is so similar to the original~

around 6 to 7 plus talked to euodia on phone she had been sending me SOS and i didnt realised, didnt go to school accompany her. im sucha bad friend, =( wah 4 days didnt blog, tsktsk all because of my pig who refused to paid my internet bills or rather she got no money to paid =) i get so flared up and i request to pay my bills myself~ yesterday family meeting and everything cleared! so nice =D

my wishlist had been semi cleared. got my keyboard, harry potter book and i ate the mango jelly and so much EXCEPT for the guess's perfume, PIG BOUGHT IT AND SAY SHE WANTED IT FIRST! that pig~

oh ya i started out on DIY shirt, plan to sell them ^^

anyway tomorrow i will be leaving for malaysia. wish me luck in shopping okay?

let picture do the talking















the keyboard harrypotter and ghost storybook.















多一个多一个再多一个






























the starting















the ending. and i will perfect it in no time =D



and countdown 5 days to my birthday!

EH i found something so happening. to all Ben&Jerry's fans, its selling at VideoEZY too!